My band works for me because I work for it. If you go into weight loss surgery thinking it's going to do the work for you and solve all of your problems, you will be disappointed. You have to change your lifestyle no matter what.. this just gives you the help you need to do it. I still haven't completely changed my lifestyle. Even though I'm 100% more active than I've ever been, I still crave junk food.. especially when I'm PMSing. That is my problem that I'm trying to work on especially hard.
Bryan and I were in bed a few weeks ago and I had my hand on my thigh. I said to him "What is this?! Feel this! Give me your hand and feel this!" and has he put his hand on my hip he said.. "It's your hip bone". Woh dude! I haven't felt that in 10 years! It's been buried under layers of fat! Little things like that is what you begin to notice and it's very encouraging. I try not to dwell on how far I have to go, but rather enjoy each little change I notice and keep pushing myself.
Speaking of pushing myself, roller derby is getting better. The practices were a rude awakening for us newly rostered girls and I was absolutely terrified. I spent so much time being psyched out that I couldn't focus on what I was supposed to be doing with my body so I would end up getting hurt and discouraged. I'm learning to go balls to the wall, focus, and use this big ass of mine to my advantage, and like this weight loss journey, I'm seeing little changes every time. I'm becoming more confident, and am almost getting used to being in pain all day every day.
I'm so happy that I have my band and even though there are ups and downs, this was the best thing I could have done for myself and my family. Bryan and I were confidently on skates, roller skating with our kids at their birthday party and I know we couldn't have done that a year ago, or even 6 months ago. There is no such thing as being fat and happy. Every day we are able to enjoy our lives better than before... and with the little family we have made, there is a lot to enjoy!
